Hope is a dangerous thing

You gave me hope that leads to a possibility,
A possibility that you might still have feelings for me
On that hope I devoted my all
My pride, my money, my time, my devotion and more.
Turn a blind eye to your actions and behaviour,
Turn a deaf ear to your lies and senseless berating.
My pride has been reduced to nothing,
A slave I have unknowingly become of yours
A wagging dog at your beck and call
I searched for a hint of remorse and appreciation.
Only to find a scheming heart filled with lies and deception.
The more I gave, the more you sucked out of me.
A willing fool I have been and still is
living on a hope that amounts to nothing
Hope is indeed a dangerous thing
For a blind and deaf girl whose heart overrides everything.

Depleted

You sucked the life out of me
My dignity, tramples at your feet
My possessions, spent and used at your whim and fancy
My pride, becomes object of your habitual ridiculing

Your presence is a cruel reminder of my stupidity
But your riddance, is an idea I just can't bear to live with
All are sacrificed at the expense of Love.
Is it pure bull stubborness or incurable love blindness?

Emptied of warmth and optimism
What's left is a cold battered heart, struggling to keep alive.
Sensitised to the pain that was contantly subjected to,
Treading on a thin hope that its void will be filled
by warmth of another who would mend all the past traumas.

The Ransom....My Heart

Despite of all the hurt you have caused me,
My heart is still not with me.
You have kidnapped and kept it in captive,
An empty void is what's left of it.
Your ransom was my undying devotion,
Which you callously flaunt at me.
I wish I could wipe that smirk off your arrogant face,
But you were right I am powerless to resist.
A tight reign you hold me like a leash dog,
I am always tireless at your beck and call.
Till absolute despair overcomes me, will I be set free,
I hope when that day comes,
My spirit won't die before me.......

Sleepless again...

Darkness of the night
Boundless like my random thoughts
Erratic with a mind of its own
Like a hyperactive child that refuse to be stilled.

"Life is short" as one says
Mine seems to be wasting away...
I know its my own doing
But mess seems to be the only thing I see,
For I just don't know where and how to... Start making sense of it

Frustratingly, I feel like crying.
The weight of things is getting increasingly heavy.
I could bow to it and eventually cave in and surrender,
Or I could build strength on it and hopefully makes me stronger.
Count my blessings, I shall start with that.
I'll pray for my guiding light to lead and to mend.
Lead the path for me to walk on
Mend the scars that the journey has brought on
Faith I will hold to my heart,That all will be worthwhile when I turned and look back.
Questions will be answered.Pieces will fall into place.
With that thought I will go to bed...

Good Night to all and Sweet Dreams.

Tangled Knots

Tangled knots waiting to be untied,
Rampant thoughts longing to be pacified.
Words are beyond me,What I am feeling inside.
Restless of being,Struggling to survive.
This world of solitude, I am trying to hide behind.
Where is my passion?I need it to be revived.
I know happiness is within my grasp,
Just have to retrace the steps,and untie the knots one by one in time.
But I am still rooted to my spot now
For its just too daunting a task,
to revisit the painful past I had long left behind

Waves of Emotion

Waves of emotion
ebbs after the storm,
Currents of anger and frustration,
Used to whip angrily at the shore,
Soothed by the faithful sands of time,
Like a patient parent pacifying an impulsive child,
The placid scene now,
Traceless of the preceding uproar.
Except for the water that taste of tears
that now graze incessantly to the shore.

In Love With Love

How I love thee
Having you brightens my everyday
Nothing can bring me down
I am invincible.

I strive on your promised happiness
I will gladly trade in anything
To keep you in my life for eternity
But that’s not how things works with you

You have tempted me to the edge countless times
To give all of myself in trust
And when my defenses is depleted
You let me fall in my faceTo awake with cold cynism
You then leave me only to tempt me again in the form of another
Is that supposed to make me stronger?
Or am I not worthy of you?

I love you still
For you keep me alive
I struggle to live without you
I think I am doing well so far
Stay next time will you?
Don’t leave me again?